Okay with Misfit Ray

Hi there! How are you today?

I’m doing well, and it was a nice HOT day in the Texas Panhandle – I just love the heat! Today was a rather low-key and EXHAUSTING day, and I honestly don’t have much to say about it, so this blog post will be short-ish. My munchies today are very similar to yesterday too, but what can I say except that I like to use everything up before going to the store!Β  Nothing wrong with that! I try to be economical. πŸ˜‰

Breakfast

I had a very cinnamon-y pot of pumpkin banana oats this morning … its my regular mix of 1/2 C Quaker oats, 1 banana, 1 C cashew milk, 1 tbsp chia seeds, 1/4 C pumpkin, 1 tsp honey, and nutmeg + cinnamon + vanilla + salt. I added 2 tbsp of granola and a few blackberries for some tasty variety – I love the crunch of the granola! My breakfast may seem like a giant calorie and sugar bomb, but I use the carb-y and sugary energy working out for sure, so I’m not worried about it.

Total calories for breakfast: 558

Snack

For a snack after my cardio, I had a Guava Goddess Kombucha along with some hot tea … it hit the spot!

Total calories: 80

Our two Maine Coons, Calliope and Persephone, were out enjoying the sun in the apartment today while I had my snack (can’t you tell they’re sisters in these pics? They look like the same kitt lit!). πŸ™‚

Lunch

I baked the rest of a chicken breast (about 4 oz) and some venison (2 oz) marinated in Worcestershire sauce, a dash of olive oil, balsamic vinegar, liquid smoke, garlic salt, and black pepper and then added BBQ sauce to it before putting it in the oven. I also roasted 1/2 of a zucchini, 1 C mushrooms, 1 C broccoli, and 1 C cauliflower seasoned with pepper, garlic salt, and good olive oil from West Texas Pharmacy. Light Fiesta Salsa Ranch and some salsa on top … holy shit, this tasted great as some post-workout fuel!

Total calories for lunch: 498

Dinner

For dinner, I forgot to snap a picture, but it was 6 oz roasted chicken with veggies. Nothing too exciting, but very tasty. I was so exhausted that I barely ate any dinner though, poo!

Calories for dinner: 446

Total for the day: 1,582

Exercise and Mental Health

I’m IN LOVE with my Misfit Ray fitness tracker … it was only 10:30 a.m. and I was able to log 9,668 steps from my workout! Huzzah! My goal is to hit 10,000 or more a day … I think I’ve been successful today. πŸ™‚

I did the elliptical for 60 minutes and walked for a bit this morning … I didn’t count my calories on the elliptical because I trust my Misfit Ray a little bit more. By 11:30 a.m. it said that I’ve burnt about 1200 calories as I’m very active in the mornings with my workout. I’m much more sedentary in the afternoon and especially the evenings – I like to sit on my ass and watch TV while drinking tea.

Here’s the thing – Luke and I went back to the gym for weights, and I utterly exhausted myself. I went to bed at 6:30 p.m. which is WAAAAY earlier than I usually go to bed, needless to say!

All I can say right now is GOOD NIGHT! πŸ™‚

A Rose Gold Misfit Ray

Howdy y’all! How are you doing today?

I’ve been a wee bit manic, but that’s okay – it’s not a dangerous mania, just tons of energy and racing thoughts. (I cleaned the entire apartment yesterday evening from top to bottom, ha!) Despite being a touch manic, I’m doing well.

I’m just truly amazed at how far I’ve come from the “old eating disordered alcoholic Mandy” to the fitter, healthier, non-alcoholic, well-fed Mandy. It’s just phenomenal to be seeing such positive results and to be living a clean, happy life.

To those with eating disorders, you CAN seek help and live without restricting, without vomiting, with the constant torment of the many and various ED behaviors out there. I know it’s part of the disease to resort to restricting, to constantly check the scale, to throw up after binging or even just regular eating, the list goes ON and ON. I’m here to say that you CAN get healthy and happy, you just have to get out of that dark tunnel of thinking …. after losing 17 years of my life to the torment, I’m living proof that life can get happier and better. That’s the point of my blogging here – to show that a happy, stable life exists beyond an eating disorder, bipolar disorder, and alcoholism.

Caprica concurs with me! (My sweet little cuddly kitt lit!)

Breakfast

I created some hot, yummy, delightful banana-pumpkin oats today! (I promise that I’ll deviate from this soon, ha.) My mix was 1/2 C of oats, 1/2 banana, 1 C cashew milk, 1 tbsp chia seeds, vanilla, cinnamon, nutmeg, and salt … I stirred 1/4 C of organic pumpkin in at the end of cooking. Toppings were 1/2 banana and almond butter. I had an almost empty peanut butter jar, so I made oats in a jar! Huzzah! Two cups of coffee were also consumed. I’m trying to cut back on my creamer, so I’m having 2 tbsp each morning and not dumping it in with abandon, as I am want to do!

Ye Olde Breakdown:

1/2 C of oatmeal – 150 calories

1 C cashew milk – 25 calories

1 tbsp chia seeds – 50 calories

1 large banana – 121 calories

1 tbsp almond butter – 95 calories (give or take)

1/4 C pumpkin -25 calories

1 tsp honey -21 calories

2 tbsp coffee creamer – 70 calories

Total calories for breakfast: ~ 564

Lunch

Today I had 6 oz of venison backstrap marinated in balsamic vinegar, Worcestershire sauce, olive oil, black pepper, garlic salt, onion powder along with a tbsp of Stubb’s Smokey Mesquite BBQ sauce. I baked the deer backstrap in the oven at 350 for about 10 minutes and then I added a half-assed fried/scrambled egg on top, just for fun! I also roasted a cup of yellow squash and a cup of red bell pepper for 30 minutes at 350, and I added 2 C spinach, and 1 tbsp of Fiesta Salsa Ranch. Water to drink!

(This plate looks messy, and it bugs me to see it in the pic here, but I ate it before I realized that, so no do-over … I’ll try to keep my pics a bit more appetizing, damnit.)

Ye Olde Breakdown:

6 oz venison – 269 calories

1 tbsp BBQ sauce – 31 calories

1 brown egg – 70 calories

2 C spinach – 14 calories

1 C red bell pepper – 46 calories

1 C yellow squash – 40 calories

1 tbsp Fiesta Salsa Ranch – 30 calories

Total for lunch: ~ 500 calories

Snack

After my second workout, I had 1 C cucumber slices with salt with 1 tbsp of light cucumber ranch dressing. YUM!

Cucumber – 21 calories

Tbsp Light Cucumber Ranch Dressing – 30 calories

Total: 51 calories

Dinner

For dinner, I had 6 oz of BBQ chicken (yet again) with some 3 oz roasted sweet potato, 1 C baby carrots, 1 cup broccoli florets, and about 1/3 of a zucchini. Served with 2 tbsp Fiesta Ranch Dressing for dipping (as if you’d expect anything less of me). Dinner was rather predicable, but it was sure tasty after lifting weights.

Ye Olde Breakdown:

6 oz chicken breast – 280 calories

2 tbsp BBQ sauce – 31 calories

1 C baby carrots – 45 calories

1Β  C broccoli – 31 calories

1/3 zucchini – 11 calories

3 oz sweet potato – 77 calories

2 tbsp Fiesta Ranch – 60 calories

Total for dinner: ~ 535 calories

Total for the day: ~ 1650 calories

Β Exercise and Mental Health

My mania carried over from last night into the morning, so I went to the gym bright and early to help cure it. I did 60 minutes on the elliptical (~ 513 calories burned, according to the elliptical … I don’t trust them to be very accurate, but I go with it!) and walked for a minute on the treadmill to stretch my legs. At home, I did some sit-ups, push-ups, and hand weights. My mania subsided a bit from this workout, so I was thankful, but it was still propelling my body forward with the need to just move around and do things throughout the day.

When I got home from the gym this morning, we had a package on the doorstep, and it was the rose gold Misfit Ray that Luke ordered for me (he found it for 40% off on Amazon)! I’m super STOKED to have a fitness tracker, y’all. I downloaded the app and can’t wait to try it out!

(Forgive my eye bags, I need more fucking Olay Regenerist Serum, damn it!)

After lunch, Luke and I went to Planet Fitness to lift weights – Luke wants to start doing this nearly everyday. My upper body is so stinkin’ weak (naturally, Luke lifts like 300 lbs with his upper body, damn him), and I’ll be working on strengthening it. Oh well, I’ll get there in time! πŸ™‚

Do you use a fitness tracker?

 

Panic at the Gym

Howdy y’all! Happy first day of Spring! How are you today?

I woke up at 5:30 a.m. this morning, and it was SHITTY of my body to do that to me!Β  I don’t know why I woke up so damn early, but I did. Oh well!

I was munchy this morning at 6:30, so I had a Pink Lady apple with cinnamon and nutmeg to cure my craving. Coffee for all at this hour, I say!

Breakfast

I had banana oatmeal AGAIN. What can I say, I’m addicted and it fuels my workout! Y’all already know my recipe, so I’ll just post a pic … I added extra chia seeds and almonds on top for a bit of variety. Absolutely delicious and filling.

Lunch

I had a scoop of chocolate Shakeology for lunch with milk. Easy peasy. (Luke had a shake for lunch too … his had a banana in it which I usually have too, but I’ve already had my banana for the day.)

Snack

I was needing a snack by 3:00, so I had some sliced bell pepper, some baby carrots, and some tomatoes with low-cal ranch and salsa. YUM! This definitely kept me full until dinner … I didn’t eat all of the ranch or the salsa that’s pictured, ha!

Dinner

For dinner I cooked some Parmesan-ranch chicken for the Luke-creature and me, and I made one tasty salad! Along with the chicken, I piled together a bed of kale and spinach with some low-cal cucumber ranch dressing and a touch of salsa, some Parmesan-parsley brown rice, a few baby tomatoes, some roasted zucchini, broccoli, and mushrooms, and some roasted sweet potato rounds with ketchup drizzled on top. I didn’t finish this big ol’ salad off and saved the leftover chicken and sweet potatoes for tomorrow or the next day. πŸ™‚

Exercise and Mental Health

I went to the gym this morning and had a damn panic attack while I was finishing up on the elliptical! Boo, hiss! My mouth started to hang on open in an effort to breathe, my eyes crossed, my body went into hyper-drive, my breathing, heart, and thoughts were racing … I got off the elliptical, walked out of the gym quickly (trying to be inconspicuous), and climbed into my car.

I sat in my car for about 20 minutes, contemplated trying to call my sleeping husband for help, but eventually calmed myself down (I called my poor mom and she talked to me for a bit which helped) … it wasn’t easy to calm down, and it was rather scary to have a panic attack outside of home, I gotta say. I’m going to call my psychiatrist once he gets back from vacation and ask him if he can give me something to help, just for when I have these panic attacks. They come without warning, they’re rather new to me so I haven’t properly addressed them yet, and they’re absolutely horrid. However, I pulled myself together somehow and resolved to finish my workout with a walk.

My workouts today were the elliptical for an hour and burned 523 calories “according to the machines” … I say “according to the machines” because they’re not terribly precise, but I’ll go with it since I don’t have a fitness tracker! That’s something that I’d like to save up for though. And then after my panic attack, I did the treadmill for 30 minutes and walked/ran ranging from 3.8 mph to 4.5 mph (177 calories burned). With running, I have to be careful because I have osteoarthritis in my knees, but I’m trying to build them up a bit by doing slow, easy running and the elliptical. Then I came home and did some yoga poses and breathing exercises that my dear mom showed me, did my sit-ups, and lifted a few 10 pound weights too.

I’m proud that I pushed past my panic attack and finished my workout today. Mission accomplished, I’d say! πŸ™‚

Do you ever have panic attacks? If so, what do you do in that situation?

Lose It!

Hi there!

I started something interesting last night: I decided to try a calorie-tracker! I’m now on Lose It! and although I don’t intend to lose any weight at my current 125 lbs (I’m actually hoping to GAIN muscle weight), I’m going to make sure I get enough protein throughout the day to fuel my workouts and to simply keep track of my food and help control portion sizes. My calorie budget is about 1900 calories, which I think is high, so I’m going to aim for about 1200 – 1500 calories a day. I’m also *not* counting things like olive oil, spices, and certain fixin’s for the sake of my sanity. I mean, who wants to count SPICES?

Breakfast

I started my day off with a Chobani vanilla yogurt for 110 calories … I don’t know why I felt the urge to have a yogurt before breakfast, but I just went with it. I don’t think I’ll make the same choice tomorrow though, I didn’t notice a difference in my mood or my energy from this little snack.

A few hours after my yogurt, I had a bowl of banana oatmeal (I need to acquire some canned pumpkin to add to it, damn it!). I added cashew milk, oatmeal, banana, chia seeds, and spices to my pot and simmered it away!

Here’s the breakdown for ya:

1/2 C of Quaker Oats: 150 calories

1 banana: 105 calories

1 tbsp chia seeds: 50 calories

1 C of cashew milk: 25 calories

1 tbsp of almond butter: 95 calories

1 tsp of honey: 21 calories

1 Chobani yogurt – 110 calories

Total for breakfast: 556 calories

Lunch

Last night I decided to have venison for lunch, so I thawed some deer backstrap, and lo! it was exactly 6 ounces! I marinated it in Worcestershire sauce, balsamic vinegar, good olive oil, and some pepper and garlic salt. I baked it at 350 for about 15 minutes … yum! I enjoyed my venison with one tablespoon of BBQ sauce. I also baked some veggies seasoned with S+P and garlic salt to have alongside the deer – red bell pepper, a squash, and some broccoli. Salsa and low-calorie Fiesta Ranch were on the side for dipping. I admit that I had a small Coke Zero with lunch too, ha!The breakdown:

6 oz venison back strap – 269 calories

1 tbsp BBQ Sauce – 31 calories

1 cup broccoli – 31 calories

1 cup red bell peppers – 46 calories

1 cup yellow squash – 40 calories

2 tbsp Chunky Salsa – 7 calories

2 tbsp Fiesta Ranch – 60 calories

1 small Coke Zero – 0 calories

Total for lunch: 515 calories

I had a tummy ache after this lunch, so Sprite Zero and Pepto-Bismol were consumed. I’m thinking it was just a bad case of gas, damn it!

Dinner

Dinner was interesting for me in that I really wasn’t hungry but ate anyway. Massive fail on my part as I developed another tummy ache after eating. I cooked a chicken breast with some sauce that I had in the fridge, and then I cooked a small sweet potato and some kale (I added a small sprinkling of Parmesan). Ketchup on the side for dipping.

6 oz of chicken breast w/o skin – 238 calories

6 oz of sweet potato rounds – 154 calories

1 tbsp of ketchup – 20 calories

3 C of roasted kale – 99 calories

Total: 511

Total for the day: 1,582

Overall, I think that I ate too many carbs today and need to tone it down according to my Lose It! account. Better luck tomorrow. I’m not willing to give up my oatmeal or banana, but I can skimp more on the small things such as ketchup, ranch dressing, my variety of veggies, the yogurt, etc.

Exercise and Mental Health

Today I went to the gym bright and early, and I did a total of an hour and twenty minutes of exercise. I started off with weights and did my legs and core, and then I walked/ran for 30 minutes and did the elliptical for 30 minutes. Huzzah! I left the gym feeling AMAZING and ACCOMPLISHED. Luke also noticed that my abs are starting to show … yay!

I had Luke take a “before” picture of me, and here it is … I hope to compare it to another picture eventually, and see the results of weight lifting and cardio! (Forgive the fuzzy socks, our floors are concrete, and I have to keep my damn feet warm somehow! πŸ™‚ ) My core is what bugs me the most – I’d like some nice abs, man!

“Before” Mandy:

“After” Mandy will come eventually, ha!

Mood-wise, I’ve been stable and happy. Huzzah!

I’m off to watch The Dead Files tonight, so I hope you’ve had a great day! Here’s to a bright tomorrow. πŸ™‚