Howdy y’all! How are you doing today?
I’ve been a wee bit manic, but that’s okay – it’s not a dangerous mania, just tons of energy and racing thoughts. (I cleaned the entire apartment yesterday evening from top to bottom, ha!) Despite being a touch manic, I’m doing well.
I’m just truly amazed at how far I’ve come from the “old eating disordered alcoholic Mandy” to the fitter, healthier, non-alcoholic, well-fed Mandy. It’s just phenomenal to be seeing such positive results and to be living a clean, happy life.
To those with eating disorders, you CAN seek help and live without restricting, without vomiting, with the constant torment of the many and various ED behaviors out there. I know it’s part of the disease to resort to restricting, to constantly check the scale, to throw up after binging or even just regular eating, the list goes ON and ON. I’m here to say that you CAN get healthy and happy, you just have to get out of that dark tunnel of thinking …. after losing 17 years of my life to the torment, I’m living proof that life can get happier and better. That’s the point of my blogging here – to show that a happy, stable life exists beyond an eating disorder, bipolar disorder, and alcoholism.
Caprica concurs with me! (My sweet little cuddly kitt lit!)
I created some hot, yummy, delightful banana-pumpkin oats today! (I promise that I’ll deviate from this soon, ha.) My mix was 1/2 C of oats, 1/2 banana, 1 C cashew milk, 1 tbsp chia seeds, vanilla, cinnamon, nutmeg, and salt … I stirred 1/4 C of organic pumpkin in at the end of cooking. Toppings were 1/2 banana and almond butter. I had an almost empty peanut butter jar, so I made oats in a jar! Huzzah! Two cups of coffee were also consumed. I’m trying to cut back on my creamer, so I’m having 2 tbsp each morning and not dumping it in with abandon, as I am want to do!
1/2 C of oatmeal – 150 calories
1 C cashew milk – 25 calories
1 tbsp chia seeds – 50 calories
1 large banana – 121 calories
1 tbsp almond butter – 95 calories (give or take)
1/4 C pumpkin -25 calories
1 tsp honey -21 calories
2 tbsp coffee creamer – 70 calories
Total calories for breakfast: ~ 564
Today I had 6 oz of venison backstrap marinated in balsamic vinegar, Worcestershire sauce, olive oil, black pepper, garlic salt, onion powder along with a tbsp of Stubb’s Smokey Mesquite BBQ sauce. I baked the deer backstrap in the oven at 350 for about 10 minutes and then I added a half-assed fried/scrambled egg on top, just for fun! I also roasted a cup of yellow squash and a cup of red bell pepper for 30 minutes at 350, and I added 2 C spinach, and 1 tbsp of Fiesta Salsa Ranch. Water to drink!
Ye Olde Breakdown:
6 oz venison – 269 calories
1 tbsp BBQ sauce – 31 calories
1 brown egg – 70 calories
2 C spinach – 14 calories
1 C red bell pepper – 46 calories
1 C yellow squash – 40 calories
1 tbsp Fiesta Salsa Ranch – 30 calories
Total for lunch: ~ 500 calories
After my second workout, I had 1 C cucumber slices with salt with 1 tbsp of light cucumber ranch dressing. YUM!
Tbsp Light Cucumber Ranch Dressing – 30 calories
Total: 51 calories
For dinner, I had 6 oz of BBQ chicken (yet again) with some 3 oz roasted sweet potato, 1 C baby carrots, 1 cup broccoli florets, and about 1/3 of a zucchini. Served with 2 tbsp Fiesta Ranch Dressing for dipping (as if you’d expect anything less of me). Dinner was rather predicable, but it was sure tasty after lifting weights.
6 oz chicken breast – 280 calories
2 tbsp BBQ sauce – 31 calories
1 C baby carrots – 45 calories
1 C broccoli – 31 calories
1/3 zucchini – 11 calories
3 oz sweet potato – 77 calories
2 tbsp Fiesta Ranch – 60 calories
Total for dinner: ~ 535 calories
Total for the day: ~ 1650 calories
Exercise and Mental Health
My mania carried over from last night into the morning, so I went to the gym bright and early to help cure it. I did 60 minutes on the elliptical (~ 513 calories burned, according to the elliptical … I don’t trust them to be very accurate, but I go with it!) and walked for a minute on the treadmill to stretch my legs. At home, I did some sit-ups, push-ups, and hand weights. My mania subsided a bit from this workout, so I was thankful, but it was still propelling my body forward with the need to just move around and do things throughout the day.
When I got home from the gym this morning, we had a package on the doorstep, and it was the rose gold Misfit Ray that Luke ordered for me (he found it for 40% off on Amazon)! I’m super STOKED to have a fitness tracker, y’all. I downloaded the app and can’t wait to try it out!
After lunch, Luke and I went to Planet Fitness to lift weights – Luke wants to start doing this nearly everyday. My upper body is so stinkin’ weak (naturally, Luke lifts like 300 lbs with his upper body, damn him), and I’ll be working on strengthening it. Oh well, I’ll get there in time! 🙂
Do you use a fitness tracker?